I set off on an adventure today
with Tara Marino, Elegant Fem Specialist. We went down to Chinatown in
Los Angeles. I hadn’t been there for years. I had tinges of nostalgia,
and it made me miss venturing out more. I forget how wonderful it is
to explore all the ’cubby holes’ this city has to offer. Tara M has
been my client for awhile now, gifted to me by Extraordinary Ellie
Drake of Braveheart Women. Tara is elegant herself and soulful. I know
we are going to enjoy the day.
We glide into Los Angeles as
though I drive it often. And we find a wonderful parking lot near all
the shops. Off we go, to find a place recommended by Dr Lisa Wong.
Excitedly we head to the back counter of a big grocery store only to
find the Herbal Expert only sees people on Wednesday’s and Saturdays.
Today is Thursday. I decide to be forward and ask if they recommend
anyone. They say ‘come back Saturday’. I look at Tara and whisper
“Remember…we walk in magic”. We head out of the store, both of us a
little disappointed. All the colors and sounds feel like we are in a
foreign land. I decide to ask sales clerks in stores where there is an
Herbal Specialist. And Mike in a Men’s suit shop gives us the whole lay
of the land. Prices, places, recommendations, food - the only thing I
didn’t ask him was finding psychic readers…. Maybe…. that will be next
time.
We venture into the new
recommended Herb shop and ask if we can have our pulses read and
tongue’s examined. A woman tells us to wait and she’ll be right back.
Tara motions to the wooden drawers and points to the sign. Reminding me
that I mentioned all sorts of details in her psychic reading. I was
telling her she needed to try some Chinese remedies. That is what
started the seedling of an idea to gravitate toward Chinatown. We
discuss how happy we are as Tara pours us hot green tea from the guest
waiting table.
Soon an older gentleman
appears, and spends 30 minutes talking with each of us, he writes in
beautiful hieroglyphs across the page. The writing is a work of art, as
he scripts helpful antidotes for our aches and complaints.
He leaves his desk and begins
measuring out this and that. Taking time to weigh everything carefully
and thoughtfully. Tara mentions that it’s ‘excellence in graceful
motion’. He adds the herbs to butcher paper, it begins to look like a
package of potpourri. It doesn’t smell so good though as the wafting
blend fills our nostrils. And it takes several repetitive tries to get
the difficult cooking instructions in our brain-order.
A woman shopping in the store
comes over and says she’s been seeing the herb guy for 15 years
and speaks of different techniques and practices in the area. Tara and
I tell her how pleased we are with our own personal tea blends. The whole process including the tea
pot has cost each of us $25.00 and $30.00.
We are enjoying the streets and
shops, when all of a sudden some guy gooses me in the buns while
walking by. I jump with shocked surprise. Undaunted, it’s time to search
for fantastic food and we’re not disappointed, (oh so yummy). On the
way to the car we pass a bakery and cannot resist the temptation to
enter. We see lotus cakes and we both purchase some. I have yet to try
it. I’m thinking I might need to do a little ritual with this cake,
that’s made from the seeds of the flower of enlightenment. Create a
special little ceremony with my tonic tea, eating a magic donut to help
wash down the curing elixir. I’ll let you know how good it tasted.
I am walking before the group. They
speak out on past lives, one by one. One says,"You are an Amazon woman warrior.
You are painted with patterns from head to toe. You are rounding up men to come
to the Island to impregnate women. After their duties are fulfilled, they are
taken back to the mainland and released." Another says," I see many Native
American lifetimes." And one of the girls say "I see a woman looking out a
window longing for someone to return. Europe perhaps." Another woman says "Do
you have a bad ankle? Shackled in prison for writing. A poet." And another
says, "Egyptian Royalty and being the confidante of the Pharoah. And of a
Pharoah that's mummy is on display somewhere or unwrapped at this time. Either
the wife or closest advisor, a Pharoah yourself. Bleed through of a lot of
Egyptian lifetimes."
Toni Attell, leader of the group
asks "what mask are you going to choose? What mask is choosing you? Tell us what
you choose to release? Laid out across the table are 32 beautiful masks. As you
would see in Venice, Italy. I see many I'd like to wear. They are all
intriguing.
I am going back and
forth between an Oriental warrior mask and a pretty clown face. I choose the
clown face. It's not Bozo, rather it's simple and plain. I announce that I want
to release fear, especially others fears that are not my fears. Once I put on
the mask there is no talking only hand gestures and sounds. The group then is
directed by Toni and they become the actors in your play.
The players all start bantering to
me about their fears, Toni directs me to get mad and push them away, but I'm
only empowered when I give love to others. As we are all wounded humans. How can
more anger, pain and suffering help another? I realize that I'm into helping
rather than thwarting others in their fearful states. But how much energy do I
expend would be a better question to ask myself. How can I be most
effective?
I can easily see the pitfalls of
daily life that we get fearful of, the lack of money, love, health. There are
those that worry about the global economy, global warming, and the end of the
world. There is fear of death. There is fear of living. We are here on earth to
live. What career do you want? How do you want to make money? You are what you
eat. Creating the health and body you want. To have love, you must give love, be
love, create love. We alone choose to limit ourselves with our own personal
baggage.
Earlier in the mask ceremony Toni
had us list our "goodbyes" and "hellos" I listed all the hello's first and then
realized my list of goodbyes were harder for me to write down. I suggested
to myself "clear thinking, no confusion." As I read my hello's outloud, a woman
said " you have already mastered many of those things" and I said, "well, I've
mastered a lot of it, but there is always room to grow wiser,
stronger, healthier, and happier.
I enjoyed being a student. I will
be the teacher again in a month or so at the Sedona Creative Life Center. And a
lovely place it is...
"We
no longer have any fun", my client says. I ask her to "elaborate fun
for me". "He's not spiritual enough, he doesn't listen to me, he
ignores me and now avoids me. We don't kiss and barely touch each other
in the same bed at night" . I ask how long has this been going on and
she says three years. "You're only trying to fix the relationship now?"
Or waking up to thinking about it now"? I gently ask. Her lower lip
starts to tremble and she starts to cry. I hand her kleenex and touch
her shoulder. Grounding her, supporting her need to cry.
As
she calms down, I guide her to take a deep breath and ask her to close
her eyes and guide her through a hypnosis process. As a small example,
I ask her to perceive movement in her solar plexus, stomach and heart
area. "I want you to feel the humming, the buzzing, the tingling
sensation of reactivating the life force in your solar plexus and heart
region." I continue, "there is movement and your trust center is
there. Your trust center is intact. You don't always know where you are
going, but you know you have a beautiful life, trust that this is so".
Activating
her life force. I have her "power purge" while in trance getting rid of
any guilt, pain, rejection, shame, sadness, phobias or insecurities. I
usually name off what I'm feeling my clients issues may be. Angst
is not about others that are in your circle, they are about you.
You
should not to be screaming to be heard, glaring, furious,
fearful, emotionally drained, painfully broken hearted, physically sick
or financially strained. Or remotely feeling or being half as dramatic.
Are you silently crying? Or crying too loud to hear your
inner voice? Tune in and listen to yourself. Are you hearing your real
truth within. Take a moment to quiet yourself and your spirit, being
gentle on your heart and your mind. Listen to the callings of your
life. Observation is the first step. And then you act upon healing.
You
may be being asked to change and if you can't hear it without someone
acting out around you or you not acting upon your life. Then change
will be forced upon you. People are in all sorts of trouble, lonely or
sick. Financially, fighting with others, addictions, phobias, getting
sickness, cancer or simply running away from the self or others to get
away from circumstances. Some people don't have the guts to speak or
act. They create chaos and unrest to avoid real love, happiness, or
security. What is going on with you? Where have you lost your way?
Where is your celebration of life? What do you want? What do you need?
As a lover.....as a friend........as a human?
There
is a certain amount of responsibility toward your life. Toward your
chosen partner. Toward creating a space within yourself to have the
partner of your dreams. The key to unlock this secret: You must care
for a partner as you want to be treated and loved.
Your
viewpoint, your actions create your life. You are not supposed to
forget the fun, the sweet feelings, the joy at someone's existence.
There are sentiments you love about the people in your present or past.
Can you relate how you felt and how you feel now? You come together
with others for comradery and comfort. To be loved as you
are........wholeheartedly. To love them as they are............No one
is unblemished to another, we are only unmarred in the scheme of the
soul's life plan. I call it "the perfection of imperfection". We are
only perfect in the eyes of God. You must get out of your own way to
live your life and to find real fun. It is your life......and you can
create a beautiful life.
Wednesday, December 19, 2008
The
Plain White Postcard By Tara Sutphen www.myspace.com/tarasutphen
December
2007
Bequeathing misery on me came in the form
of a plain white postcard. The writing barely legible, no signature, no return
address. Agony and despair between the words and
lines.
The way we create the energetic pathway
in our lives intrigues me. As a Metaphysician I teach others to see, hear, and
feel on a deeper level. I am a way clearer. What is "really" going on with you?
What is "really" going on with others around you? People you are involved
with? What aren't you doing in your life to prepare your place in
it?
See it, Hear it, Feel it.....Know
it.
I thought I should share this little note.
Thankfully this isn't a regular occurence. I was only going to ponder it with my
teen class as they deal with deception, depression and angst at school. In
reality we see or deal with people like this everyday.
NOTE:
(verbatim)
I finally found someone I thought was the
love of my life. After being hurt, broken hearted + alone almost 38 years. But
something happened and it looks like we won't be together after all. Is it
because of my past life karma, and I don't feel I deserve love like Abenda would
say. And I choose to be unhappy in this lifetime and here I am trapped in a dead
end situation. And this is all my fault and shouldn't think life is treating me
badly like Abenda would say. It's a good thing you weren't destined to have bad
karma problems like the above so you don't have to be alone and lonely your
whole life so you could be married your whole life and have a job and money
instead of sitting without either almost every day of your life and have a nice
mansion to live in instead of being homeless for the third time in your
life. Scared, and not knowing where you're going to be or what's going to happen
to you. I'm supposed to accept all that as my fault and bad karma. You
said anyone can have friends. Apparently not. Just struggles is all I can have.
I hope you get to have bad karma in your next life so you can have your fair
shot at knowing what me above, negativity and unhappiness and being poor +
homeless, unloved, alone and lonely is like. Choose not for yourself next life
time. Telling people why their lives stink while yours is so great is only fair.
You get to experience negativity + unhappiness first
hand.
unsigned
Milwaukee, Wisconsin
Obviously this is someone not close to me.
As I'm single and don't live in a mansion. Abenda is my spirit guide. And I feel
sad for the postcard writer. I will send them healing. You may not have someone
writing you letters, but everyone has conflicts on many different levels - home,
relatives, friends, foes, money, work place/office.... random parking spot thief
to outright deception or hateful acts.
The pathway...destiny of our fate. Predestined events I researched
in "Soul Agreements" . Where does wisdom erase our errors and the earth force
energy produce the onward process of life as we want it. I know many people put
on happy faces and say uplifting things, but do they feel it, know it, believe
they deserve it? Only the pattern of their lives tell us for sure. Of course
negative actions and reactions are not moving forward. People who are sullen or
act mean to you? Where do we draw the line between judgement and harsh
conditions. How are you reacting to people like this? The
caution note being...be careful how you respond or wish upon others. Try to
always be reasonable and sensible. We must face our fears. At the end of each
day we have only ourselves to answer to for what we generate with
others.
There are baby steps to creating the life
we want to live. Don't try to leap as there will be important lessons and
information lost. There is steps to everything we ever want or need. Recognition
of what you want is the first step. Communicating is the second step.
Learning/Study is the third step (this is the step where I like to
sorce). Action is the fourth step. (activating the life force energy) Taking
time to really Live and Love is the fifth
step.
Sorcing is focused meditation, prayer and
ritual. Activating is Shamanic techniques to move into energetic productivity.
Remember you are born of the earth and life
is prosperous in all ways. Love on all levels - self love, unconditional love,
romantic love, real love, true love, Wisdom, Knowledge, Money, Security,
Harmony, Happiness, Great Health . Your's By Birthright.
There are guidelines but no limitations.
As we celebrate holidays this month - open
your mind for wisdom, open your speech to offer solace and kindness, open your
heart with gladness, open your hands for meaningfulness. Know that we all have a
purpose, we all make a difference.